In April this year I was told I would never be able to have children unless medically helped (ivf) April was also the month I conceived naturally! After 4 years of constant trips to my GP I was slightly confused as to how I had conceived but was over the moon. May 21st was the day I seen those 2 pink lines bursting with happiness and my heart was completely full! July 9th I was told that my baby had no heart beat 1 week shy from my 13 week scan. July 11th I found myself in hospital having a medical managed miscarriage my heart was completely empty and the next 6 hours was the worst! I lost count the amount of times I cried that day and the days after. I’m sat here today completely Empty asking myself a million questions that nobody can answer, I think about our baby from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed. I ask myself if it’s normal to still be just as sad as the day it happened but I know that it’s ok to feel the way I do. The hardest part is accepting what has happened. I wasn’t given much support after if anything at all I just had it drummed into my head that it will happen again as if my baby was a batch of cookies and I can just bake more, that’s not the case when it took me so long to conceive and was even told I would never have children the natural way. I think it’s amazing your offering support and I’ve been searching for some kind of support from people that understand it more because they’ve had it happen to them.. I’m awaiting my rainbow after my storm but every day I pray that I will be someone’s mummy one day 💛✨